"whoohooohoo! it's turkey day! and it's important because...?" that pretty much went through my head when i was, oh i don't know, 6 years old? when i learned about thanksgiving day, i thought it was so important that we would honor it like no other (except for christmas.... you can't honor it more than christmas) but when i finally realized what it was.... i was disappointed. i think it was then when i could actually think of what holiday's were. i mean, i thought christmas was just some time in the year that people just gave stuff to me.... it didn't even occur to me that EVERYONE gave gifts and got some themselves. so, by that time when i realized what turkey day was, i just realized that christmas was "GIVE ME GIFTS NOW" DAY. but, back on topic. in school, i had learned that it was created the day that the settlers and indians had a HUGE feast that lasted 3 days (quite frankly, i don't remember. so long since i've heard the story) and i thought we would celebrate in some EXTREME way.... like more gifts. idk, that must have been something like that. anyway, when i went to my aunt's house, like we did before i actually payed attention, i really looked around. all i saw was a turkey that i made out of paper in the kindergarten on the table and TONS of food that would last ME at the time.... 2 years? it was a lot. but, i had about 10 people there other than myself over the age of 35. so, i knew the food would be gone. but, when the dinner came, i thought we would be there for 3 days. i mean, that's why school lets us off for three days into the week, right? well, we said Grace, ate, and that was that. i found nothing that important through it. just a time for me to see my mom complain about being fat.... and she wonders why. lol, just kidding mom. but, still. if all we do is eat, what is important about thanksgiving?

i finally learned later on. never had i actually realized who i got to SEE. each year, i had some of my relatives from Texas come up and i hardly go down there to see them. it took me so long to realize that i was seeing people that i WANTED to see and i was missing those chances. and i mean, this was so obvious it was funny when i realized this as well: I WAS THANKFUL FOR NOT BEING IN SCHOOL! i was a kid and i never realized that i didn't have school! I WAS SUCH AN IDIOT! well, thank God that i found out soon enough!

even later on, i began seeing things that i should have been thankful for in the first place, but never actually knew it. i got a dinner so gourmet that i didn't have to pay for it (or my mom, which was always good), i got to see the parade that goes through STL which is always amazing, and other matters that i care about but can't remember because i've been so used to them i don't need to think about them that much..... which sounds weird, but makes sense to me.

and this year, i think i am the most thankful of all my years. although i am 15 and i only found the true meaning of turkey day when i was 6, i've never been so happy. I EVEN HAVE A LIST!

1. I GOT TO BE IN TEH PARADE THAT I LOOKED FORWARD TO!!! TODAY!!!!! although i didn't get to SEE it, like i always do, i got to be a PART of that parade and on TV too! it's always an honor to be a part of that. everyone looks forward to it
2. my family from texas. they came so far and they were so amazing these last days (1. for accepting Carson, 2. for letting me drive the HUGEMONGOUS truck all they way to my school to show where i go, and 3. giving me a good time while playing poker with them. YOU'D LAUGH THE SECOND THE HAND WAS DEALT!) plus, it's been great just seeing them! i hadn't seen them in a couple years. it was just my grandma last year, so i was happy to see them again!
3. food. nuff said
4. Carson. i can't even express how happy and thankful i am to have him. he's made my life fun and he's been with me when i needed him the most. i'm not even sure if i can pull anything that will surpass what he's done for me. and if i could, i'd do it. i want him to see how much i appreciate him. i want him to think of me as one of his thanks.
5. last but not least, my life. no, not on the side of suicide or anything, but everything that has happened to me. high school, meeting new friends, ect. my life includes everything because chances are, i might forget everything that i am thankful for except for those i've already listed. but i want to be happy for EVERYTHING and everything happens in my life, so this is the perfect thanks. it can hold infinite amounts of thanks in only two words.

when you really think of what there is INSIDE of the holiday, you'd be amazed. it's kind of like a donut with filling. i'm happy with the donut itself. then, when i bite into it, there's this ooey gooeyness that tastes really good. and then, it somehow finds its way to overflow, and i'm just having fun trying to not get anything messy. the holiday is great and all on the outside. food, no school, but what about the inside? when you think of EVERYTHING, it floods your mind and you see that there's more to it than the donut part.

turkey day is probably a great holiday to actually thank. christmas, you've got competition!