
Dawn's flower.... no such, right? wrong. in every dawn, there is a flower that blooms, whether a real flower or whether it's something new that comes from nothing or something. in my world, I am that flower. my mind is full of things that suddenly appear, sometimes crap, and sometimes things that make you think and wonder, while making perfect sense or complete non-sense. and although i am just a teenager, i am still blooming with thoughts, ideas, and experience that i believe everyone can know about. so, find a soft spot, get your cuddle buddy, and enjoy the view of Dawn
my name is Dawn. well, sorta. my middle name is Shao-wei, meaning Dawnflower in chinese (hence, Dawn's Flower....). i am only 15 years old and as many of my friends say, my brain isn't really all together. however, i have thoughts that i think are important, or just dumb yet i want to share them. sometimes, my outlet of expression is through writing. although sometimes, i feel that i can't always say them outloud, but they have to be written to have meaning and thought run through the words. it's no wonder that i love to write... writing is different than talking. writing can have meaning, but have grace and art formed from it. it can be as beautiful as Dawn *snicker* or as plain as a piece of paper.... so long as it is something.....
Take some time for you to reflect on everything. * Have fun...
Thanks for the visit
always happy to have people pay me a visit thanks love your journal really nice have a great w/e
I'm in the lovely national capital of Canada where the trees are in all sorts of colour right now. LOL you are the same age as my daughter, and I'm thinking this is a lot like what she would write.
Heya! Thanks for stopping by my journal, I'm glad you like it!
Your pictures are great btw! Hope you have a great week!
until a couple days ago, i never realized how chaotic my life was. and you can tell since i haven't written in 13 days.... almost two weeks. anyway, things are looking up for me and carson... except for a few days. otherwise, we're much better. there was that time when our doubts collided and he said that he might have to break up with me because he wanted to before our parents forced us. as we all know, my grades suck and he knew that lately, my grades havent been going far.... but now i'm doin better and we're fine.
the play finally ended. it was really fun except for the part about staying at school till 8 PM... THAT MEANT STAYING AT SCHOOL FOR 12 1/2 HOURS!!!! but, the show itself was awesome. we had three, november 9, 10, and 11 and we did awesome at each one! although, the friday show was probably the best. the 10th and 11th were both sold out, and i'm excited cause my friend, Rich, he got the VERY last ticket. i even had to go the office and call Miss A to not give it to anyone else because it meant a lot to carson.... however, the result wasn't the greatest. he came and all, but when we had this song called "gimme gimme (that thing called love)" he was like (from what i heard) "YOU CAN GIVE ME THAT LOVE!!!" so, that scared me some. but it was good to see him again nontheless. however.. carson said he didn't like it cause it was a musical, but i really don't care. it still did really good. i played the Mama at the VERY end of the show where everyone who came to see me didn't know where i was for 2 whole minutes because when everyone was bowing, i wasn't part of it, i was THE very last thing to happen. and i looked awesome. i'll try and get a piccy up soon, but i'm too lazy to figure out how to get the memory card connected to the computer... my dad has yet to show me that.
and right when i stopped my extreme busy schedule, I GET ANOTHER ONE! only, it's not as bad.... i'm now part of the winterguard and it rox! i've already mastered a few things that they didn't think i would get in the first month and i've only had 2 practices! not bad, right? well, we already found out the song we're going to perform on and it's Grey Street by the Dave Matthews Band. i've heard it before, though it's not one of my favorites. but, since i've never seen the winterguard perform, i have no idea what it's going to look like. i just picture it when the real band with something more upbeat. but, we'll see...
my grades have been doing good for once! before, i had like, 3 Cs, 2 Bs, and 3 As, but only because they were music... and biology. biology has become a lot easier for me, so that's good. anyway, i DID have a D in history, but it went to a C after one assignment cause i got.... 33.3% extra credit and i don't even know how! oh well. but, i still managed to pull ALL of my grades up. my spanish was a C, now a B... guitar is music, so it's an A... honors geometry was a C, now a B... Language Arts has been a B, but probably gonna go down with my essay that i haven't even done yet that due monday... Band, no comment... Biology, A... and history, was a D, and now a C. so, i pulled all of my grades up. and what's really cool is that i got praised from my history teacher! my dad emailed him asking if i could turn in a REALLY late study guide worth 50 pts (yes, REALLY bad, but deal with it cause i still pulled my grade up) and he said no. however, my teacher said that really, i'm already catching up because i do high-quality work on my things now (mainly cause i have the time), so it's been giving me sweet points earned and i've pulled my grade up nicely. so, even with 50 points missing, both my teacher and my dad are confident that i can pull my grade up to AT LEAST a nice solid B. and because of that, my parents are being nicer to me when it comes to grades and when my history is up, i can finally have plenty of time to see Carson again! problem is, right before holidays. i missed this WHOLE quarter working on my grades. i'm just happy that he can see that. he's been patient with me on this and he knows that i'm really trying hard to get my privaledges back. although, he did have doubts, but he's back to believing in me. i'm proud of myself for getting this far and showing everyone i can do it, i just need the time and work!
so, when i eat my first bite of my sandwich... i feel sick. REALLY sick. i even got mad at everyone who moved my chair even the slightest bit. so, the food i was eating made my stomach even madder. at that, i left to the nurse's again... after getting a pass from my band director. of course, while getting it, i had a funny convo with them. mrs. Renner, the percussion director and the main director, Mr. Arata were in there and when mrs. Renner was making my pass, Mr. Arata and i had a funny convo that lasted what? a minute?
Arata: "your mom is very nice"
Me: "what?"
Arata: "Your mom is nice. she called me over the weekend" (she was confused about winterguard, so she called to ask about that)
Me: "oh. wait. WHOA! When? What did she do?!"
Renner and Arata laugh
it was nothing. i forgot she had called him so i freaked out, but i knew that she had to find out about winterguard before she let me actually join it, so i was aware of what he was talking about... after a few seconds. but anyway, i left for the nurse's and i stayed there for another half hour, but that didn't help much either. although, the pain did leave for the rest of the school day...
when i got home, i had the sudden need to go on a walk, even though it was freezing like no other day when it's sunny. so i walked and i didn't get that far. i usually walk down to a path that goes around our neighborhood lake and go half way, then walk back because it's the same distance, but i only got about 50 feet away from the beginning of the path before i needed to throw up. i didn't, but i wanted to. so, i walked up and got as far as i could... which was 2 houses away from mine. at that moment, i puked in my neighbor's yard. it wasn't much, but i'm serious when i say this: that felt so good. you know how when you barf, it feels good afterwards? i think it's cause you get rid of whatever is upsetting you, and that's what i did. but, since it wasn't much, i still felt sick, so i managed to get to my house and i lied down for about an hour. it felt better, but i tol dmy mom and she said that she would buy some ginger ale. she did, and thank God she did. but, i'm doing better. however, when she asked if i had the stomach flu (and because i didn't know...) i said i had no idea. my mom told me that i might because there is a bug going around EVERYWHERE because a few of her collegues' kids have the stomach flu and i know a few students who just returned and left school from it. so, i guess i might have it. well, if i don't feel any better tomorrow (and i mean it. if i feel even the slightest bit queazy. i felt that way all day... and it made me puke. i'm not taking chances) i'm not going to school. Carson already knows, but he said his first reaction is "YAY! I GET HER DONUT!!!" because tomorrow, he brings in donuts for my zero hour class (tradition of each friday. two kids bring breakfast for everyone). but later in the day, he said he would start to worry about me. i don't want him to, so i'm going to try and go to school. but if i do feel queazy, forget about it.
i think that's enough since i need my sleep.... so later y'all!